Daniel's Fast day 8 I had a sugar binge. I couldn't take it anymore. I was so hungry and I thought to myself "It's okay, I'll just start again tomorrow". Let me be completely transparent, I ate cookies, candy, donuts, etc. Full out orgy of glucose. That sounds a lot like how we live our lives. A life full of compromise and taking advantage of grace and mercy. Will God strike me down and send me to the pit because I gave into a moment of weakness, not at all but the fact still remains that I continued to eat more and more sugary treats even though I knew I should not. Life continuously offers us cakes, donuts, and pies to satisfy our flesh and they seem so delicious until we wake up with a tummy ache. God was trying to protect me from the tummy ache but I gave in to momentary pleasures. Was it worth it? Not at all. We play Russian Roulette with our holiness and gamble with out lives with things that are not even worth the bet. Romans 6:1-2 (KJV) says "What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, that grace may abound? God forbid. How shall we, that are dead to sin, live any longer therein?"
How can we live a life free from sin yet still choose to sin? It is impossible. We can't make excuses and say "It's okay God knows my heart" or "Grace will cover my actions". If we know it is sin, why do we continue in it for the delight of the flesh? Grace's purpose is to cover when we do not know any better not to cover when we chose not to do better. I chose to eat the donuts and yes they were delicious but I felt terrible spiritually afterwards because of my compromise (I will just start again tomorrow if I can just eat these cakes now) and my disobedience. I lacked perseverance and discipline in that moment. Christianity is not easy. It is not a belief where you can do whatever you want. Freedom in Christ has been misunderstood to mean freedom of choice. Freedom in Christ is the surrender of your life so that you may live free from this world, free from sin, and free from this flesh. When you surrender your life and your desires to God, the simple pleasures of the flesh become meaningless and the quest for righteousness becomes that much more important to you. Are we going to do it right every single time? No. We are born into sin, the vary nature of being human is sinful. That's why we must transcend this world (sin) and be our true, spiritual self.
Romans 7 sums things up pretty well especially verses 15-25. I like verse 24 (KJV) when it says "O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?" The answer is only God can deliver us from death (sin). Let's move to Romans 8:1 (KJV) "There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit." Notice that it says, who walk not after the flesh. So when we compromise and willingly sin, are we walking in the spirit? So condemnation, disapproval does apply to us when we walk after the flesh. We should feel bad. The problem comes when we live in condemnation and do not move forward into correction and repentance. God does not desire us to beat ourselves up or become depressed/ discouraged because we acted in our flesh. God is love. Love involves both correction and forgiveness. Feeling guilty means you care and that the Holy Spirit is nudging you saying you can do better. When I was in my dextrose coma, I felt terrible for maybe an hour then moved forward to understanding and repentance. From there God says "For I will be merciful to their unrighteousness, and their sins and their iniquities will I remember no more." (Hebrews 8:12 KJV)
Thank God that Jesus died on the cross for my outright sins and that I am free to start fresh in each moment. Thank God for his mercy and unrelenting forgiveness. We still have to take the initiative daily to resist sin daily meaning making a conscious effort not to compromise holiness even for a second. When we think of doing something that is pleasing to the flesh, stop and take a moment to think about it again. Is it worth my holiness? Is it only a temporary pleasure? Will I regret doing this? And when we downright know its not right, let's make the choice not to eat the cake.
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