How Lord? --By faith That's the answer to a constant question on my mind. God has a calling for each one of us but I know for me, I tend to question how? This leaves so much room for doubt and disbelief. "God there's no way I will write a book" "there's no way I can speak to nations" "I just don't see how I will be a big or important as you see me to be".
Isn't it wonderful that the intricate details of our lives is left up to our Father, all we need is a little faith. We all know the scripture, "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen" Hebrews 11:1 KJV. I cannot see the road to my destiny, but I can believe that God does not lie and whatever He has motivated me to be will come to past. I may not have the resources at this moment, but I know that God is faithful to provide me everything I need to do what He has designed me to do.
Doubt is natural. It is what we do as human beings. Faith is work. Faith takes waking up every morning and fighting off the "haters" including myself. It's so funny that everyone around you can believe in you, the preacher can come up to you and give you a direct message from the Lord, but our lack of confidence kills the dream. Our worry stifles hope. Everyone wants to talk about the nay-sayers and how some people say "you'll never amount to anything." Let's talk about the other end of the spectrum where we are surrounded by encouragers but are defeated by self- doubt. God- forbid that we become our own stumbling block and delay our own purpose.
"And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. Therefore I am well content with weaknesses, with insults, with distresses, with persecutions, with difficulties, for Christ’s sake; for when I am weak, then I am strong" 2 Cor 12:9-10 NASB.
This is the scripture that comes to mind when I think about doubt. God also talks about mustard seed faith (Matthew 17:20). Because of grace, God makes up the areas I lack and where my faith is little, He makes it big. I can say to the mountain, be removed even with small faith because God grows my faith in my weakness. Little by little, He shows up things and our purpose begins to manifest. We believe a little more, and more. I would LOVE to be at a place in my life where I have BIG, unshakable faith all the time, but I am not. Is God less pleased with me because of this? Of course not. Psalm 46:1 says HE is an ever present help specifically verse 1 but the who chapter is powerful.
God is my cheerleader, my coach, and my teammate all at the same time. When I'm in the game and I get tired, he motivates me. When the other team surrounds me, I can pass him the ball. When I'm unsure of my next move, he shows me the play. I can win the game with the Lord on my side. It's not always easy. You're not always going to be gung-ho or happy go lucky. The crowd isn't always going to call your name "RUDY, RUDY, RUDY!" but by faith, God will establish you. You will walk into your destiny, if you just believe. Fight the good fight and see where God will take you.