It's been over a year since I last posted. I am proud to say I have become a mother. Now she is almost a year old and God is tugging at my heart to start writing again. It is so easy to get caught up in being "mom" that you forget the other parts that make up who you are. I am not only mom, I am a writer and a visonary. As I sit here with a fussy 10 month old tapping at my keyboard while I write, I remember the passions I once had before my daughter came and will be around still when she detaches from the permanent umbilical cord we have created and ventures off on her own. In my time of self reflection, I have thought a lot about self-worth. Have the things I have done in my past made me less worthy of love? I think we have all asked ourselves that at some point or thought we are too "bad" to be loved by others and if we are that bad surely God is punishing me for my misdeeds.
How quickly do we resort to negative self-talk when something goes aray? "Oh, I am so stupid" "How could I be so dumb to let that happen" I am worthless, I am a piece of.." you know where I am going. I am reading this book called Uninvited by Lysa TerKeurst and in the first chapter or so she talks about negative self talk. We say things to ourselves that we would never let another person say to us. What if someone walked up to you an said "you are worthless" "you are stupid" "Idiot!"?
Here's an honest question: Do you think you are worthy? Are you able to see yourself how God sees you? Can you speak to yourself kindly and with words of love?
God not only calls us friend, He calls us sons and daughters, heirs of His Kingdom. We have been redeemed by Christ's sacrafice. This means that no matter what we have done, it has been forgotten. God thinks so much of us and nothing can ever take that love away. Read Romans 8:35-39. We die daily and the things we did yesterday, a week ago, years ago, is past away to those who believe. Believe! You have to believe that you are no longer bound to the things that you have done. You have to believe that you are worthy. You have to believe that you are a son/daughter and you are awesome!
Affirmations are a great way to start positive self talk and thinking. Wake up each morning and say " Good morning beautiful!" "I am worthy of love" Repeat to yourself who you are and who God has made you to be. Affirm your passions and strengths. Whenever negative self- talk comes around, close the door to it. Say "No , not today!" "How dare you!".
Will affirmations be the fix to all problems, the magic cure? No. It is a journey to self-love and declare your worth. We have long been taught to not think highly of ourselves and anyone who does is arrogant. Would God have us to low our head and walk around feeling like less than nothing? Absolutely not! Be confident. Love God. Love yourself, Love others.